…at the end of your comfort zone.
I have spent all morning pulling together music, song chords, lead sheets and the like. Why, you ask? Such a good question. I stepped up and onto the Youth Worship team a couple of months ago to be a support and back up singer. Originally, I just wanted to support a couple of girls who were starting to step out of their own comfort zones and be there to help cheer them on as well. I had been hearing and ignoring a nudge from the Lord to step up and provide leadership in this area for a while but like I said, I was ignoring it. It wasn’t long after that first week that I felt the inner shove right out of my personal comfort zone to move from backup singer to lead singer. We have a wonderful worship leader who has such s great heart of worship but needs to grow in his guitar skills. I have been praying about it and am going to lead over the summer so he can just play the guitar and grow in this gift. That is my plan, lol. Baby steps.
This is more than a step outside my comfort zone, it is a flying leap. I can carry a tune in a bucket however I have never felt the need to lead from that bucket. Over the years, I have stepped up and lead worship when the need is great and then step back when the need is gone. I think someone usually feels sorry for me and rescues me- someone with a better voice.
But something has changed in me this year.
Over the past few years, I mentally took this (singing) off the list of things God could use. Writing- check, speaking- check. Drama- uncheck. Singing- uncheck. In January, I prayed a prayer that sounded something like this, “I won’t hold anything back. I will obey and use every gift I have and even the ones I think aren’t good enough. You call, I will come. You say the word, I will obey. Use me however you wish, I won’t argue with You.”
As a result, I am writing on this blog five days a week, I wrote and performed three monologues in Reno at the women’s event I spoke at in March and now, I am going to lead worship at the Hub (our youth ministry). I am being stretched. I am not saying to brag, no, i am saying it to show you God has meet my prayer with an “About time. I have some wonderful things for you to discover“. And I am, I am discovering the joy in allowing God to use me however He desires to. To usher in His truth, His presence, His freedom into people’s lives through more areas than just the ones I think He should. To step out in faith. To release the limits.
I have surrendered all these areas before, mind you. Then I have slipped right back into my comfort zones. Why? Because stepping out of a comfort zone:
• is hard and takes work
• is exhausting (because it is hard and takes work)
• is scary (because it is unknown- I don’t know the outcome)
God calls us out of comfort zones:
• to grow you (you did ask to grow, yes?)
• because miracles happen outside comfort zones (if they happened inside your comfort zone, wouldn’t you already be living them?
• to call us out of ordinary living and into extraordinary abundant life with Him.
I have no idea how my newest leap out of my comfort zone will lead but truthfully, I don’t have to. I’m not doing it because I need to be upfront, or need everyone to hear my voice. I am doing it because God is asking me to. That, and I love to worship- who cares if I happen to have a mic at my face when I do it? Okay, my fear of failure cares a little bit, but I have already told him to shut it.
I know this much. When Jesus calls me out of the boat, so to speak, it is to walk with Him.
There is no place i would rather be.
“Come,” Jesus said. So Peter got out of the boat. He walked on the water toward Jesus.” (Matthew 14:29 NIRV)
Photo: Boat in Clear Water Painting by David Van Hulst
How is God challenging your comfort zones?