Hello, my friend. How are your doing? Can you believe that Thanksgiving is next week? I can’t. It rained here last night and the streets and sidewalks are all wet. They reflect the cloud covered gray skies above and all the trees are adorned in their fall splendor. I have one child at home sick (virus) and another at school but only for half days. This week is relatively quiet for me as I am only working three shifts at Charming Charlie. It is a blessing as I’m not stressing about having to be at home with Justin. He is not miserable, just uncomfortable with a sore throat and low fever. I am hoping and praying that no one else in gets sick. I think we have all been sick with something this last month and I’m done. No more, thank you.
So…how is your heart? It is a question that cuts through the pleasantries and dives right to the core doesn’t it? It is a question that I shouldn’t even ask until I answer it for myself: how is my heart?
Goodness, even as I attempt to answer that question, I am aware of the vulnerability it brings. Answering it isn’t as easy as a one word answer because our hearts are filled with more than one thing at time. I suppose I am even bold enough to ask this question right now because at this time my heart is full of gratitude and peace. I have been so fulfilled and blessed by being able to speak the WM Retreat last month and then a WM Bible study last week. I love the process of preparation as well as the sharing of it. I have been working on the website and finally began to put the notes from those messages up, slowly but surely.
Overall, I feel like my heart is in a good place but I don’t want you the assume that means it always is. It isn’t. There have been days in the last month that doubt has creeped in and fear has sabotaged my joy. There have been challenges in my relationships and I have over- reacted or under-reacted. There have been times when my heart has been sad, worried or frustrated for many different reasons. Life is complicated. It is unpredictable. The holidays especially can be emotionally loaded and highly stressful. Today, this verse was brought to mind:
“But I trust in you, Lord; I say, “You are my God.” My times are in your hands” (Psalm 31:14-15a NIV).
I suppose the point is that however your heart is at this time, you have a God who has not abandoned you to deal with it on your own. He loves you and wants to walk with you through all your times: good times, bad times or in-between times. Heart-wrenching times, peace-filled times, exhausting-times, and resting-times. Sometimes that is all in one day.
How is your heart?
What is going on inside of it right now?
What do you need to trust God with?
What do you need God to walk you through?
Whatever it is, you can be sure that He is ready to work in it and work in you. He is ready to walk with you and work through you.
When you have a relationship with God, it doesn’t mean everything is suddenly perfect. It means that you are not alone. It means you have a Savior who has redeemed your soul and wants to walk with you through all your times.
“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.” (Ephesians 3:20, 21 NIV)
He is able to do more than you can ask.
Sometimes, we forget to ask.
For whatever is going on in your life and heart, I pray that you would be blessed with a clear awareness that God is with you. I pray that you will ask for his hand to hold and to guide you during this and all your times.