Here’s the thing about stepping out in faith with Jesus- you are human. It is scary, it doesn’t make any sense and goes against every natural instinct of self preservation you have.
You take the first step and think, “Wow, look at me, I’m doing it! I didn’t die and I maybe awesome!”.
As the spiritual adrenalin begins to subside and you take the next step, your eyes drift away from Jesus to the wind and it takes your breath away and the rain beats against your face. You look down at the water and have a moment of sheer terror. Now your thoughts go more like this: “What was I thinking? I can’t survive this. It is actually way worse out here than it even looked. I can’t do this! I am going to die!”
You begin feel yourself sinking. The water is rising quickly and you cry out, “Dear God, I was wrong, I am an idiot and shouldn’t even be here- help me!”.
And He does.
“Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him.”
Matthew 14:31 NIV
You are relieved and at the same time mortified. You wanted to be perfect. You wanted to run across the water triumphantly declaring God’s awesomeness. Instead you sunk and cried.
What happens next is unexpected. You are expecting a rebuke, a sit down, a shaking finger Jesus who is so disappointed that you didn’t have enough faith. Sigh.
“You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”
Matthew 14:31 NIV
Stay with me. I know you think that IS what just happened and so did I, until I checked the original Greek and read a commentary or two. The phrase “You of little faith” is actually only one word in Greek and a commentator insinuated that it was more like a nickname than a set down.
What if Jesus caught Peter as he fell and with eyes full of love and a half smile on his face said, “Little faith, why did you doubt”? What if it was said more as rhetorical question and a reminder from Jesus that He had him.
God’s got you.
It is scary. It is hard. You do have little faith but all you need is just enough faith to step out, to obey and then when reality crashes in and you are sinking, cry out for help.
Jesus is your refuge. He is your very present. You can trust Him. You don’t disappoint Him when you get fearful or let him down when you cry out to Him.
Immediately Jesus is there. It doesn’t make sense and you don’t deserve it but it is true nonetheless.
This is grace, this is salvation, this is the reality of following Him. It is impossible, it is by His power and He is constantly rescuing you.
You are human.
And He still loves you.
And still invites you to walk with Him and do impossible things.
He is the reason you got out of the boat in the first place.
Cry out when you need to.
Rest in His Grace.