One of the hardest things for me to do is write my own bio (description of who I am for a brochure, flyer or program). Long or short- it is my least favorite thing to write. First off, talking about myself in third person is weird and trying to paint an accurate picture of who I am is just darn difficult. It reminds me of the “self” you put out there on a first date and feels just as awkward.
Last week I found myself wrestling with having to do a bio for the workshop that I did at our WM Retreat. The workshop was titled “X Marks the Spot- Discovering Hidden Treasure in Your Life”, and I was actually really excited about presenting it. What I was not excited about was writing a short bio for the program on it.
I came up with this:
“There are hidden treasures in your life. Hidden truths that will enrich your heart and rejuvenate your spirit. You don’t see them but they are there, just waiting to be discovered. Join Cindy as she leads you on a journey through the map of God’s Word to uncover, reclaim and grasp the precious treasures God has placed in your life. You won’t want to miss it.
Cindy Grasso is the mom of two almost teenage boys and the wife of the Student Ministries Pastor of Bayside of Citrus Heights. She is thrilled to be on a journey of uncovering new treasures in God’s Word as well as rediscovering the joy in sharing them. Through her writing and speaking Cindy gets to share what God has done in her life and because of her part time gig at Charming Charlie’s, she is well accessorized while doing it.”
Now, while all the above is true, before I got to the “polished” version, I had to wade through the miry mud of the first one that came out of me:
“Cindy Grasso is a slightly overweight middle age woman who is in the throws of a midlife crisis half the time. The other half of the time she is loves her life as youth Pastor’s wife, the mother of two teenager boys and part time worker at Charming Charlie’s. She dreams of making a living as a writer and event speaker bringing healing and hope to women’s lives but until then will continue to blog inconsistently and speak for free. She has food issues, is shy and loves more than anything to curl up with her cat on a comfortable couch and get lost in a great book with chocolate and a cup of coffee nearby.”
Granted, I was in the throws of PMS when I wrote it but can I tell you that pre- polished version has really grown on me? It made me laugh and take myself less seriously (which MUST happen before writing a bio).
I ended up opening my workshop with it and it made everyone else laugh too. It isn’t as shiny or “professional” as the polished one but who cares? As of yet, I don’t live a “shiny” version of my life and I’m not a pro. I am….me.
I like me. I love what God has done in me and through me. He has taken a mess and made a message. He has mended my brokenness and broken strongholds in my heart. He loves me just the way I am and loves me enough not to leave me that way.
Thank the Lord, I don’t have to even attempt to be someone I’m not to fulfill the calling He has placed on my life.
And neither do you.
When God calls you to step out, it is more about obedience than ability.
The world likes a tidy image to categorize us in but God has no such desire. In fact, he is much more interested in authenticity vs “image” and reality vs the “picture in our head” of what and who we think we are supposed to be.
“So be content with who you are, and don’t put on airs. God’s strong hand is on you; he’ll promote you at the right time. Live carefree before God; he is most careful with you”. (1 Peter 5:6, 7 MSG)
Let go of the image of you think you need to be and embrace who you are. God does. Live carefree before Him. Start enjoying the reality of your life instead of being discontent that it doesn’t fit the “image” of what you think it should look like.
In fact, I find that the more I let go of that “image”, the more I’m able to thrive in the life God has given me. Since I am not spending all my time and energy trying to “shine it up” and make life “look right”, I can simply enjoy who I am and what I have.
Is there an “image” that you are trying to live up to?
Are you miserable because you are trying to live up to it (and it is impossible?)
What would happen if you let go of it and asked God to help you love who you are, where you are and what you have got?
Bios come and go, but the ability to love the reality of yourself is priceless (and only comes by God’s grace).
Thank you for cheering me on, my friend. Thank you for believing that the “polished” version of me is possible and loving me for the “unpolished” that I am.
I feel the same way about you.